Editorial || The Atheistic belief-system
Two eyes. Two paintings
I have never been an atheist. If the rider of absolute honesty be imposed, I may go so far as admitting that it was a due to a propensity in the major part of my teenage years to turn the other way, rather than any soundproof conviction, that would lead me to ‘believe’ that God did not exist.
It would be anger or disappointment, underexpressed emotions of a child trying to play a self-conceived version of his adult self.
It would inevitably be the wrath – the bad dices of life that would make the self seek refuge. It would find cushion in the turbulent alleys of imagination, which would display all the traits of a true artist while painting hope in absolute chaos.
With age, however, the works of the other true artists in this world and those beyond began to slow down the march of the automated, proud modern mind and it wasn’t long before the brain, in a blind, instinctive lunge at comprehension, began piecing together shards of new experiences, lived through words, sounds and visuals that remained unchanged in forms but for the way I was to interpret them.
“The mysteries of creation – the creation of the arts – was to be unravelled” was the original idea which later adopted the standing tagline, “so as to follow in those footsteps”. A few solved ones and the idea of the unsolved infinite is all it takes to feel a sense of unfathomable awe towards the architect, the composer, the director of the grandest piece of drama at play around this life of ours and in the stars beyond.
And yet, in a day and age marked by the capricious power play by self-appointed religion representatives, theism has been reduced to being a sceptre for gross misrule. The dishevelled unity of mankind has been further partitioned by groups advocating varying means of invoking the omnipresent.
I believe atheism is undoubtedly the better alternative during such a time – that atheism which is as sound a system of belief as religion at their finest. Atheism cannot be the “’Godless’ by mere declaration”, “conceptually hollow” form that I would mean to practise in my teens. The best among the atheists I have come across are ones who do not require the concept of God to lead their lives for the fact that they have already invested all of that belief in themselves and their fellow human beings – a trait they tend to share with the best of believers.
I confess I may not be capable enough to ever be either of the ‘best’. Yet I daresay it would have been enough for me if I could forget exactly when and under which circumstances I wrote this down – if only I could retain the what and forget the how; maybe after a hundred dark nights’ hence! 
First Published: CultureCult Magazine, Issue Two: November 2015